You Are an Apple of My Eyes

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that....

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

*Enchanted, taylor swift's song. I've long been listening this song. Good song (my first response). Then my friends often listened or just sang this song together. In fact, it is familiar song for me. And until one day i've met someone. Over the time go on, he is an apple of my eyes. Sumthin freak, but it's the reality. My brain full of "the perfect one". This is the big problem, main problem, or whtever it said "HE IS THE PERFECT ONE". Please dont judge me >i'm too much< you dont even be me. Haha no one to be my self. Hmm, i just wanna tell if i found someone who totally perfect. Even i knew no one perfect in this word. God creation's who isn't just handsome, isn't just cool. Actually he is smart, absolutely smart (i've made it right ;), totally friendly, 

kindly, and he had an advantage that i really do to like. I lose my words to describe him. One word, he is EVERYTHING. *Back to the song. since i met him, since i want to know all of him deeply, i found this song. Enchanted, i was start to searching the complete lyric. I tried to sing loudly. But can you guess, suddenly i sang slowly, slowly, slowly, and kept silent. Just listened taylor's voice and my eyes stuck on the monitor. My eyes glazed. I was freezing. All the praying in this song just same like i did. All the part of the moments just sama like i ever did. This song is for you, my everything.

Just The Same

Andai hatiku ini mati
Pasti takkan bisa rasakan semua ini
Mungkin tak akan pernah kutemui
Begitu pahitnya sakit hati


Aku mau semua itu
Saat hati tak lagi bisa merasa
Namun sayangnya,
mungkin itu semua takkan pernah bisa
Karna hatiku terlalu lemah tuk berperang
Yang ada hanya bisa berdiam
Terima segalanya

Tentang kemanisan juga kepahitan

Kapan semuanya bisa berubah
Saat ada yang datang menghampiriku
Janjikan segalanya yang indah untukku
Namun, ia benar2 berikan janjinya untukku

I will not fall into the same hole, because I will only find the same one, you just perform pain and lies to me, but if you still remember about your promise to be my protector if i fall down cause someone else, i'll bill that, cause i believe you're my best friend, i hope

Thanks God

Terima kasih Tuhan, atas segala waktu yang telah Kau berikan untukku Waktu itu terlalu indah, hampir semua terbilang mudahKini aku akan berjuang, agar aku bisa menemui hari yang lebih indah bersama bintang - bintang yang tlah kau kirimkan

Terrible Day

One day, before 2010 end.
Now, i'm in desperate. The reason of this day is terrible. When i woke up at this morning my mom was angry at all. Realize, i'm wrong as my brother too. It hppend cause my brother and i are lazzy, the most lazy in this word whteverlah. We always late to take a pray. You can imagine guys, how many times my mother woke us up? 10? more than i think, bcause i still sleep whereas my mother come back for superindo to went shopping. That's my brother and i bad habit. Who is not angry if every morning must waste they energy just for make my brother and me up. My mother's angry cause she's tired. Not just bout that she's angry, she's tired too to ask me study. And also this morning my mother shouted bout my National Examinition firmly. My heart beating, my brain running. I know what should i do. But i can't to do. That's all about this morning.
Continues at the afternoon.
I'm sooooo frustration cause my class project >yearbook<. Don't ask why, actually that make me so desperate.
And what happen on this night, dont know, just a wish, my mother be better.
With this condition i'm afraid to ask her permission to take a private new year party at my classmates house.
My question, what happen tomorrow in the last of this year ?
please, dont be tomorrow like today, that sounds bad
Can i have a special nigth to close this year with my beloved friends and do something that i haven't in my story new year. 
Till my 15th years old i always enjoyed new year in front of tv. kurang melas apa aku coba !

Setitik Air

Tak sedikitpun ku mengerti atas setitik air yang coba tuk telusuri rongga hatiku
Hanya setitik, tapi begitu pasti mengalir
Hanya setitik, tapi terasa mampu tuk hanyutkan serpihan - serpihan pahit yang telah terekat erat di hati
Hanya setitik, tapi perlahan membangunkanku dalam ingatan itu
Hanya setitik, tapi ku mampu rasakan kekuatannya tuk membantuku bangkit dari kenangan lalu
Hanya setitik, tapi aku membuatku bingung tak menentu
Hanya setitik, tapi menghiburku


Bak ketukan pintu dari seorang tamu
Mungkin dia akan tawarkan segalanya yang indah untukku, aku mau !
Mungkinkah diakah setitik air itu ?
Dari mana ku tahu ?
Tuk bukakan pintu saja ku tak mampu
Kuintip siapa di balik pintu itu
Yang kutemui, tangan kiri yang disembunyikan rapi di balik seragam putih biru


Tuhan,
Kalau dia benar – benar setitik air itu
Kan kuucapkan terimakasih,
karena telah mau membantu sembuhkan lukaku
Tapi lagi – lagi aku tak bisa untuk bukakan pintu
Karena aku tak tau apa yang ia bawa di balik itu
Aku tak mau, jika yang ia sembunyakin itu hanyalah kebahagiaan semu
Yang akhirnya, lagi - lagi akan membuat luka baru


Namun Tuhan,
Apakah mungkin jika aku bukakan pintu,
Aku tak akan lagi rasakan sakit itu ?


Tunjukkan Tuhan siapa setitik air itu?
Tunjukkan Tuhan apa yang harus ku lakukan’
Sebelum semuanya kembali seperti dulu

Dear Diary

Dear diary
Let me tell you about my story
I know it’s rather sad
But that’s the way I feel

Dear diary
I don't know if this is right or not
Start it thinking of leaving him
But I’m afraid it might hurt him
All I want is for everything in the right place
And everyone is happy
Is it too much to ask for
All I want is for everything in the right place
So everyone is happy
Is that too much to ask for

Dear diary
Strong is not exactly right word
Start it thinking of leaving him
But I'm afraid it might hurt him
All I want is for everything is in the right place
So everyone is happy
Is that too much to ask for
All I want is for everything in the right place
So everyone is happy
Is that too much to ask for

Dear diary
Strong is not exactly the right word
I don't know what to do know
Confusion is all over me

Bye Sweetness November

I had alot of nice memory that impossible to forgotten. 

Lovely November <3

Begin From :

> TONTI PAWITIKRA <

Tonti Putri Pawitikra kelas IX berhasil mendapatkan juara 2 tingkat kota Yogyakarta pada tanggal 31 Oktober 2010.

Dan berhasil meraih Juara 3 di tingkat Provinsi.14 November 2010
Thanks for : Tonti Pawitikra especially for 9 grde group
Pak Jion, Mas Zein & Mas Bimo, Alumni, Gunung merapi (haaah?), and for God that made i realize if miracle always there are. 

>> My Birthday <<

 Yey the most special day in November 

My Birthday, 4th of November 2010

Day, when i'm going older older and older, 15th years old #tuaaaaa

and this day my friends >Rahma Fidella< got birthday too

Thanks guys for your surprise, all the nice gifts, all the dough (smell bad), tart, and anything that you gave to me.

 I could feel the love that you all gave to me, love for you all's the best gift that i had. 

The last, thank you so much my friends :)

>>>21 November <<<

berawal dari latihan upacara

21 November menjadi hari bersejarah bagiku dan mungkin teman - temanku

Hari di mana menjadi moment langka bagi ku dan cheper, suasananay beda banget, berasa kompak, semuanya bebas #apadeh tapi bener kok, semakin hari suasananya semakin hangat :))

Dimas Gilang Dananjaya, he is my classmates >check officialcheperblogspot.com

That day he was success to make me melt (melting sak melting2 e)

>FU, HUJAN, SUBHA, SEKOLAH, GALERIA, FIXIE, SAPARELA, ORANG ILANG, MCD, YEARBOOK, NADA, NARSIS, etc<

Yang jelas 21 November sekarang sudah menjadi bagian dalam kamus memoryku.

Kenangan itu indah, Kenangan itu manis

Tapi, kenangan itu menjelma menjadi pahit

begitu pahit ketika kita diingatkan pada suatu hari

Hari dimana memory kita diajak berputar menelusuri lorong waktu

Berlari kencang dan mau tak mau melihat pemandangan itu datang

Kebahagiaanlah yang tergambar jelas dinding lorong itu

Ingin masuk lagi ke dalamnya

Namun masuk kembali ke deretan canda tawa itu mustahil

Karena semuanya kini sudah terbingkai rapi

dalam memory hati

takkan ku nodai

sekalipun itu butir air mata hati